Wisdom Of The Rooms - 2020

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May 4

Quote of the Week

"Overheard at a meeting: ‘How are you?’ ‘Probably a lot better than I think.’"

This quote resonated deeply with me when I first heard it. What an accurate and appropriate way to answer a question I get asked so many times a day. And isn’t it true? Most of the time I walk around with a completely different picture of how I’m doing and what’s going on in my life. For years my disease distorted the thoughts I had about my life versus the reality of it. It’s no wonder I drank so much.

When I got sober, my thinking wasn’t completely restored to sanity. In fact, this quote reminds me that my thoughts are still driven by the disease of alcoholism. Even today, my head rarely tells me the truth; instead, it’s busy painting dark scenarios and building cases for why and how things won’t work out. It’s always planning a way and a reason for me to drink.

And that is why, even after many years in recovery, I still go to meetings and work the Steps. I’ve been told that while I’m sleeping, alcoholism is doing push-ups in the closet. It keeps me discontented and craving a drink. And the road to that ruin is still my distorted thinking. Today, I use the tools I have to stay spiritually fit. Today, I focus clearly on how good my life really is, and when asked how I’m doing, I realize that things are a lot better than I think.