Wisdom Of The Rooms - 2016

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October 10

Quote of the Week

“When I am in my head, I am with the last person I got drunk with.”

This quote reminds me still that my best thinking got me a seat in recovery. That by myself, my solutions to my problems are still self-serving and often driven by fear. Before recovery it was this inner voice that drove me, and just so long as I followed its advice, just that long was I going to remain selfish and alone and drunk. It wasn’t until I surrendered my thinking and let someone else inside that I began to recover.

When I was new to sobriety, I was desperately afraid of telling you what was really going on in my head. If you knew what craziness brewed in there, what resentment, hatred, and despair went through my mind, I was sure you would ban me from the rooms. But you didn’t. When I finally began to reveal myself, something miraculous happened. I was accepted, along with all my thoughts and faults, and I was shown the way to freedom from bondage of self. That path, I learned, was to let others in.
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I was taught right from the beginning that this was a “we” program, and for me to recover I needed to find someone I could tell the truth to. By letting others know what was really going on inside my head and by surrendering my thoughts and actions to God, I began to change. And as I continued to take contrary action to what my head told me to do, I began, one day at a time, to overcome my character defects. By growing in this way, I began feeling a part of the fellowship and a part of life. Today I try to stay out of my head, because when I’m alone with myself, I know that I’m with the last person I got drunk with – and that’s still not a good thing.