Sharing and Caring

[MajestyJo]

Know that my body and mind are not acting the way they are suppose to. Self care is so important, I ignored it for years, and as a result of not listening to it and being honest, I am paying the piper now.

Self-honesty is so important. Just glossing things over, and pretending it isn't happening, is not good. I found myself slipping back into old patterns and behaviors.

Today when I was lying on the hospital bed, I found myself angry and very agitated because my doctor wasn't there and how dare he keep me waiting there. Ouch! So I decided to do the colour meditation that I was taught to do in treatment. When I close my eyes, I see darkness and then, I generally go through the colour spectrum starting with red, other times, I go to green, blue, or indigo before I see the healing power of the white light.

Today I saw the red and new it was anger. An all time first happened today, it was weird and strange. It was like I was seeing down the tunnel of my throat, and it was all red, but it was like a red tunnel and it was in motion, and it looked clear. When I got the results of the scope, I was told it was normal.

It was light go of the anger, fear, resentment, etc. and trust my God. Knew He was with me, and it was like He was showing me I had nothing to fear.

When the doctor did come, they moved me around, stuck something in my mouth, and the next thing I knew, I was in the recovery room and was told to sit up and get dressed. I woke up feeling great, don't know what they gave me, and don't care. I don't think it was a narcotic because I didn't have a heaviness from the after affects. He stated in the room to the other doctor that I was clean and sober 22 years.

Thanks for letting me share.