Daily Practice - December

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December 5

Practice of the Day-
BB pg 30-
Ch 3- More About Alcoholism:
MOST OF us have been unwilling to admit we were real alcoholics. No person likes to think he is bodily and mentally different from his fellows. Therefore, it is not surprising that our drinking careers have been characterized by countless vain attempts to prove we could drink like other people. The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker. The persistence of this illusion is astonishing. Many pursue it into the gates of insanity or death.
We learned that we had to fully concede to our innermost selves that we were alcoholics. This is the first step in recovery. The delusion that we are like other people, or presently may be, has to be smashed.

-Tom- I had no idea what an alcoholic was. I didn’t think it was the homeless guy or the successful guy. I thought that what made you an alcoholic was that one day you went into some stupid AA meeting, raised your and and said “my name is Tom and I’m an alcoholic.”
That seemed lame as hell and it didn’t bother me a bit because I had admitted worse **** to better people.
I did not know that alcoholism was a mental obsession coupled with a physical allergy.
The obsession says I can take a drink like everyone else, then I have a physical allergic reaction to the alcohol in my body that ensures I will not stop.
However once I was educated on the mental obsession and the physical allergy through the Big Book and my sponsor one thing became Chrystal clear to me.
I was an alcoholic and I had a choice to continue on to the bitter end, or get sober.
I pray today that I remember what I am: an alcoholic named Tom.