The Obsession

[roverl0616]

I believe I was born with an allergy to alcohol. The obsession came much later. That was formed when I started to believe that by drinking something that I was allergic to that my problems were being solved. What was really happening was my problems were still there, it just no longer felt like they were. I loved feeling like that. Even though my body was rejecting my drinking alcohol, I became convinced that as long as I drank it I would always feel that way. That's not what happened, the opposite actually did and things got worse, and as they did I became obsessed with finding out why drinking alcohol had once worked, and then stopped. I was fortunate because of recovery. I only spent a few years of my life having this obsession. Some of us will spend our entire life driven by the obsession to find something that wasn't real to begin with.