Who are ya?

[MajestyJo]

A good question to ask ourselves. It calls for self-honesty. For me it is taking time to meditate and spend time with my God and ask for clarity and knowing as to what His will is for me. Am I on track, did I make a detour, did I slip back into the familiar and acting out in old behaviours and habits? Am I aware of others, do I slip back into self-centeredness? Do I have a closed mind and tunnel vision? Do I have selective hearing and do I internalize instead of speaking up and sharing with others. Do I make my world go around or do I put it in the care of my God.

Who am I in today? Am I my own best friend, do I like spending time with me or do I escape and go back to looking for some person, place or thing to take me out of myself, instead of working on my recovery? I can`t give away what I don`t have. Am I drained, empty with a void that I forgot to feed and fill up with spiritual things? The list goes on. It isn`t about being all about me, but me becoming a better me, the person my God wants me to be in today.

What did I need to change when I came into recovery? Everything! My ideas, my thoughts, my actions, my friends, my doctor, my habits, etc. I could no longer ignore me by looking at everything else to escape my reality.