Wisdom Of The Rooms - 2021

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July 5

Quote of the Week

"Those who leave everything in God’s hands, will eventually see God’s hand in everything."

I was many years sober when I first heard this quote. It reminded me of how I had turned my recovery over to God, and how everything had worked out. I got through my Fourth Step—when I thought it was going to tear me apart—and God helped me make all those terrifying amends as well. I can now see God’s hand in every part of my recovery, but what about the rest of my life?

Lately, I’ve been back in a lot of financial fear. I’ve been worrying about my work and stressing about the future, and the old thoughts of, What is going to become of me? have crept back in. The difference between this and recovery is that I’ve kept God out of it lately, thinking instead that I have to handle this part of my life by myself. This has made my life unmanageable again.

Last week, I hit an emotional bottom. My wife finally sat me down and said, “Enough is enough.” I knew it was time to surrender. When I did, a wave of relief washed over me, and I have been free of fear since I left it all in God’s hands. I was given the perspective to see that He has been handling my financial future all along, and that I’m a lot better off than I think I am. Once again, I see God’s hands in everything, and—as long as I leave things there—I’ll be just fine.