Wisdom Of The Rooms - 2021

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May 17

Quote of the Week

"When I am in my head, I am with the last person I got drunk with."

When I hear this quote, I remember that my best thinking can’t get me sober—that by myself, my solutions to my problems are still self-serving and often driven by fear. Before recovery, this inner voice drove me, and just as long as I followed its advice, for that long I was going to remain selfish, alone, and drunk. It wasn’t until I surrendered my thinking and let someone else inside that I began to recover.

When I was new to sobriety, I was desperately afraid of telling people what was really going on in my head. If others knew what craziness brewed in there—what resentment, hatred, and despair went through my mind—I was sure they would ban me from the rooms. But they didn’t. When I finally began to reveal myself, something miraculous happened. I was accepted, along with all my crazy thoughts and faults, and I was shown the way to freedom from bondage of self. That path, I learned, was to let others in.

I was taught right from the beginning that this was a “we” program, and for me to recover I needed to find someone to whom I could tell the truth. By letting others know what was really going on inside my head and by surrendering my thoughts and actions to God, I began to change. By growing in this way, I began feeling a part of the fellowship and a part of life. Today, I try to stay out of my head, because when I’m alone with myself, I know that I’m with the last person I got drunk with—and I know where that can lead.