It's For Me

[roverl0616]

I've been through a lot in my life most of which I never planned on and being in recovery is one thing I never did plan on. When I set out in my life I had no idea of all the liabilities I would be bringing with me, but I soon found out as I struggled at being able to live life by my way of doing things, that seemed so natural to me, but I now know are flawed at best. From me being in recovery I am able to see what I have that's not good for me, and am offered something else in its place to use from being in recovery, and I am helped from all of this. Recovery has always been there for me and has always helped me from me being in it. Recovery has given to me what I needed, that I didn't want in spite of me needing it. At first I thought I was being outsmarted by being in recovery and it doing this for me, and I didn't like to think that I was, so I decided I didn't want to have anything to do with recovery, but I had nowhere else to turn to that could do what recovery was doing for me, and I soon realized that I was just trying to think my way right out of recovery. I am thankful that I didn't succeed at doing this because today I still need recovery to do what I can't do for myself, and it still does.