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[MajestyJo]

Had to make choices today. My son turned off my alarm, which I didn't hear even though it was at the end of my bed. He knew I hadn't slept last night, so he let me sleep.

I had a choice, let it go or call Darts. I chose to call Darts and they offered me a ride to the hospital at 5 pm and pick me up there at 8 pm to come home. Normally, I don't do night time unless it is to my NA groups. I said yes and things came out beautifully, a taxi arrived at 4:45 pm just as I came out of the building. My drive came into the hospital and called my name, too cold to wait outside, and it was 7:43 pm,so they were early instead of me having to wait. So grateful. Looks like I made some good choices.

[MajestyJo]

Had to make choices today. My son turned off my alarm, which I didn't hear even though it was at the end of my bed. He knew I hadn't slept last night, so he let me sleep.

I had a choice, let it go or call Darts. I chose to call Darts and they offered me a ride to the hospital at 5 pm and pick me up there at 8 pm to come home. Normally, I don't do night time unless it is to my NA groups. I said yes and things came out beautifully, a taxi arrived at 4:45 pm just as I came out of the building. My drive came into the hospital and called my name, too cold to wait outside, and it was 7:43 pm,so they were early instead of me having to wait. So grateful. Looks like I made some good choices.

[MajestyJo]

"Maturity is the art of living in peace with that which we cannot change, the courage to change that which should be changed -- and the wisdom to know the difference." - - unknown

They say that when we experience our first traumatic experience or pick up that first drug, we stop growing emotionally if we stuff the feelings and emotions attached to it.

Maturity for me was being able to handle life on life's terms, something I hadn't been able to do for many years because I shut them out with the blanket of denial or stuffed them using alcohol, pills, work, food, relationships, etc.

That has always been the hard part, "...the wisdom to know the difference." I had to stop trying to play 'god' with my life and that of others. All I can do is my part, and allow my God to do His. I needed to remember H.O.W. Honesty about myself, open my mind to other ideas other than my own, and willing to go to any length to maintain my sobriety. I am powerless over people, places, and things. I can't control it, I didn't cause it, and I can't cure it. Always good things to remember. Stay in the moment, stay in today.

Emotions, I have to acknowledge them in order to let them go. I am powerless over people, places, and things.

I had to go to meetings to learn what it was I was feeling. I found myself reflected in the rooms of recovery by those who went before me and those who were still in the recovery rooms.