I Heard myself saying it at a recovery meeting that I was attending. I was an alcoholic. I said it only because I didn't want to stand out. Little did I know of the profound effect it would have on me by simply saying that. For in the moment I set into motion a huge battle within me. I immediately went into a fierce denial after the meeting. I struggled endlessly with the possibility that I was one. I didn't want to be one. No one wants to be an alcoholic. That's why it's important we have to admit it to ourselves. I stayed close to those in recovery during the time I was having this battle within that we all go through. It was because of doing that was able to become comfortable enough to know the truth about myself I'm an alcoholic and I'm okay with that.