Eating Disorder

[MajestyJo]

Friday, January 31, 2014

You are reading from the book Food for Thought

Don't Be a Garbage Can

A garbage can is round and unprotesting as it accepts the leftovers which are stuffed into it. How many times have you treated yourself as a garbage can? As we stood up at the sink scraping what was left on the plates into ourselves, we rationalized that we just couldn't bear to waste good food. Why did we not remember the harm we were doing to our own bodies? "Is not the body more than food?" Certainly, it is more than a garbage can.

One way to eliminate waste is to prepare only what is needed for the meal. Sometimes we compulsive overeaters catch ourselves unconsciously overestimating quantities just so there will be something left to tempt us! Another way to avoid throwing out useable food is to keep a bowl in the refrigerator or freezer for scraps which can later be made into soup. We all know how to store complete servings for later use. It is the little bits here and there that get us into trouble.

If there is nothing that can be done with what is left in the bottom of the pan, then throw it away. Better to waste a small amount of food than to break abstinence, which is the most important thing in our lives.

Teach me to value my body more than food.

The title was a remember when for me. I use to eat what was left over, so it wouldn`t go to waste, but it went to my waist.

My son does the same thing in today. He and my ex-husband gave me an in grained resentment for years, they were slim and didn`t put on a pound and I got fat looking at what they ate.

[MajestyJo]

Thanks for your shares. I was trying to show how the mind can take over, and our dis-ease can sneak in, and until we become aware, the issue is there, then we can recognize it as an old behaviour, habit and way of thinking.

I didn't think I had an eating disorder, until I learned to look at the feeling and thinking behind my disease of addiction, it doesn't matter what subject I used.

I would look at myself and think "Fat!" and wouldn't eat; or I would think, "What is the use, I am fat any way." Most of the time, it wasn't fat, or no more than usual, but the swelling from my body as a result of diabetes and arthritis.

What addict ever thought of throwing away and substance instead of using it first. One time a 12 Step call came into our group. No one else there had ever been on one, so I was elected to go with another member who had a car. It was my second 12 Step call. The lady was 70 years old and was upset with herself for throwing 1/3 of a 40 oz. bottle of vodka down the drain. I took one look at her and said, "It looks like you could use a hug." She got over a year in recovery, she joined the Women's Group, and she died sober. She also had food issues too. We were meant to cross paths.

It made me aware that I had to apply the program to all parts of my life.

[ScaryCarrrie]

Hi - I'm Carrie B, a food addict fo sho.... Have you stopped posting the Food for Thought? I love that little book. I have really enjoyed reading this thread. Thanks!

[MajestyJo]

Haven't stopped, start a new post monthly. Feel free to share, this is something I need to work on daily. It was the getting on honesty about my eating disorder that kept me from being fully recovery. The 12 Steps are applicable to all areas of my life. That meant, get real! When you reach for that second helping, are you really hungry, or are you just filling or stuffing?