Walking Through the Fear

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Walking Through the Fear

2 Corinthians 5:7: “For we walk by faith, not by sight–” (KJV).

When I made the decision to face my burnout-prone lifestyle and get well, I was filled with fear. Initially, I was afraid to admit my need to see a counselor. Then, I was afraid to tell my husband. Next, I was uneasy about leaving the business I helped start, fearful I would not make enough money. I was nervous about turning down clients, afraid I would no longer be of value to my family, society or God. I was anxious about discovering the reasons I became “enslaved by work.” I was alarmed I might never recover from burnout, that I would not retrieve the “me” I lost. I was afraid I would be labeled selfish if I stopped helping or fixing others’ problems. And when my life started to change for the better, I was apprehensive it might all blow up. Through it all, I feared I might never “feel” again.

Then little by little my fear gave way to faith. And I just kept walking. Step by step I walked not around, over or under the fear, but through it. I began to experience what the apostle Paul meant by the words: “Walk by faith, not by sight.”

Lord, sometimes I’m still afraid.

Please walk with me through the uncertainty and dread.

Joan C. Webb

[MajestyJo]

Found I didn't recognize fear, often covered it up with other feelings and didn't realize that most of my life was fear based.

Some of the old tapes instilled it in me, often people of authority, told me it was so, so I felt "Who am I think differently? It must be so."

As the saying goes, "I can face everything and recover" or I can "Fear everything and run."

In order to let go of fear, have the willingness to walk through it, and replace it with faith, I need to trust in the God of my understanding.